Surprised by the email,and decide to go back SMP for anything I can help. It seems like I am a good guy,like you said, but I am selfish too...
Finally bought the Bose for you, not the one for computer gaming or movie, but the portable and wireless music one-SoundLink!!It's easy to use,and the sound is not bad either!
I just say, I bought for myself,and for you, just hold for me, because there's no place for me to use it!I know how you are going to react...but, as I know you are going to like it, that's what I need!
And for testing the music,I played Jacky's song for demonstration. And since long time no listen to Chinese music, when heard the old and so familiar song, it was so touched....
Jacky's music is so good for background!And I can play the music behind me while I was on computer now, that's sooo good!
May, this is only thing I am going to bring to you...but for your BF, that will be the best Jacket then...I am just a so nice guy...
I know what to bring you for gift as I go back.Even it's money,I will save for it.
It's time to change back to Normal time tonight,it means we are getting closer,in time...
And I decide to bring your BF the jacket,and the best one, since that's what you want.Even I don't want to know him,even he maybe a good guy,but, I don't want to know him.
And,see you again put my name in your MSN,your friends may already know me now...a friend,good one.hehe
I had another dream,the 818 Bus at home,my lost Iphone,my lost shoes,go to school but changed to go work...strange,and you are not in the dream though...Do it mean something?
Got to talk to SS for some time,and the feeling changed,it's not like enemy anymore,that's good, still friends,right?No matter where you will stay,wish you happy.
And get to talk to LX more these days, just because I am going back soon?She is a good girl,and I like her,but I know we can't be together either,I don't want to waste her time,but we can still be really good friends,hanging out,have dinner,watch movie,talk and laugh,just like we always are,before she finally get a really BF and ready for settle down...
I had the feeling, and it has been with me for so long and never change, I will be alone for a real long time...to my 30s?maybe...
List all the girls,Ann, the first girl, married in Germany long time ago;Koala,married and had a boy already;Shu,married and will have the wedding soon,which is I don't want to go...then SS,closed to lover,but didn't start;u,never know the feeling until ur left,and,we are not each other's style,but still strongly into you now,wish you a good and happy life too.You won't know my feeling about you,even you know the gift I sent...At least you have a BF now,and you are on the way to your happiness...And LX,the little girl that we had so many ideas uncommon...but,still like her,maybe like bro and sis,but,want to protect her...you are the only one is still alone,so I think I will be with you for a while,whenever you need me...
Ya, feel strange...with my name right beside you...
I have the feeling want to go back to the SMP because i feel like they, or , u, need me to help...But that's OK, i am not non-replaceable, so, I just walk on my way.
Had a dream again last night, it's strange too...just because I asked her when is their wedding, i got to dream about all these...maybe this kind of LOVE has been lasting for so long, the college life, it's so hard to forget, maybe...
The dream is weired and won't happen, but, i feel sad about it...
The day that, all the girls i liked were married, and I am still myself, that's for sure, and won't be long to be true...
I am missing u, u are there but you don't need me now, I am happy when you need my help, because at this time you will think about me, that's all enough for me...wait till 2am to sleep, just for any chance u may need my help...that's the way of my love, it won't be good to anybody, but, that's my way...
I don't know what to say. Never concerned about his name, what he looks like, what kind of person he is, nothing want to know....but, i got to know his webname, and start to search everything about him, got to know his real name,his birthday, his school, his work experience, his picture, what he's interested, what he is doing now...what's wrong with me.....................................
Looking at the small gift you are buying for him, admire him......become sad....very sad......
It has been midnight, felt not good because of Kathy but it's all acceptable, because that's her, and i know her....and i hate the girls like her, how can she like that....i wish i don't know her and not my friend actually.
and, the story between us is OVER also, right, even it has never began. But, how can i tell how angry, or sad, or whatever I am...i may know how you do that, i just hate it, i hate it, i hate and hate and hate and hate and hate it.................................................................
The 6th beer, but still no idea of drunk, i know i will not be drunk tonight, how can i....
I know it will come one day, but i didn't expect it so soon, or, i didn't expect it at all.....
Can't sleep tonight, that's right, it's the end. I can't say good luck, i can't say congratulate, i, just hate it.
It will be unreal if it rains in Las Vegas. everyday is a shinning day.
Everyday made a little step forward to the plan, but found so many difficulty. But still need to keep moving, if stop here, i don't know where i will be.
Didn't accept the offer from Shanghai main company, but decided to stay for the MBA, it's will be a miracle if can pass the GMAT, but as soon as now, have to get a try then....just like something else, if you want it, you gonna try it. And if you get it, you are lucky; if not, then, coma back later!
So get a new apartment, bought a car, get a new job even may it's not really legally...and started the company(Damm expesnsive!), working little by little to the plan, but things are turning not bad. Keep moving.
But your word made me down, may i need to be happy for you, because you are moving to your desire, but, because i am not only a good friend, i am sad, even i know it will come anyway, i am sad......
Jackie 8:36:15 PM 这个男生。。。。。估计。。。。会是我第一个男朋友。。。。
I should say "good luck", "fighting", but i can't, i can't speak it out.....I wanna be with you, I wanna be with you now.......
I am happy when you said "I missed u all", i will be much happier if you took the "all" out, but i know it won't happen. Even you said "you are one of the all", "for example i want you to drive me to where i want to go", I am happy with that, but, I know it's just as a common friend, that's OK, i am just so emotional...
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